We finally got our pictures back from Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep. The photographer told me it would be 6-8 weeks, so after week 6 I was checking the mail like crazy. I finally had to email the photographer and ask her about them. When the disc got here it was bitter sweet to view them. It brought back all the sadness I had felt, but I am so glad we had these pictures taken. I had already forgot how small she was. I only had a few hours with her. I have tremendous guilt over not giving her a kiss. I can't remember kissing her, I am sure she knows how much we all love her and can't wait to see her again.
We did get the autopsy report back and it concluded it was a chromosomal abnormality. As well as the umbilical cord was not attached in the ideal place, which caused hyper coiling. I was relieved to know the loss of the baby was not my fault. It had nothing to do with my body or any activities I did. I am very nervous about another pregnancy, but we will try again in a few months.
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